I’ve never been in so much pain, and on a regular basis.
My only focus right now, outside of feeling and getting better, are these things:
duties I must stick to if only to create and keep a framework of neutral and reliable activity in my life
actively keeping away from anything that causes me stress (people, places, and things, past and present and potentially future)
the love of my family and friends who consistently bring me joy more than sadness and pain, people who nourish me back instead of suck all the life out of me
Everything else is not even on my radar.
It does not exist.
Peace, come to me…