Evolving is sometimes something you don’t notice. Other times, it’s an uphill struggle, fighting obstacle after obstacle. That is, after you recognize that you have an obstacle in front of you. That’s the tricky part.
Today two ends of a potential circle met and became one line, a complete circle, for me. After experimenting for years, I feel like I’m at the point where obstacles that I didn’t understand were in front of me, are no longer in front of me. Somewhere along the way, I mined through them, without perhaps completely understanding what they were, and only having an intuitive sense that they were in the way. All I can say about that process is, I had to find my own way around them, through sheer refusal to believe that there was no way around them.
At the risk of uttering some unspoken oath that will “jinx” me, I will say that in the last few days I’ve found that elusive sparkle I’ve been longing for, and the courage to now swim towards the depths where it lies.
Experimenting will continue, but now, I am finally equipped to make something longer, deeper, and more challenging.
And that is what I am going to do.